andrea

stuff?

Mon, 18 Nov 2002 06:13:28 GMT

you know how things do this stuff that is, yeah... and your life is like... and all of the sudden this thing happens that like... doesn't really matter and you are like umm yeah, whatevah? well that is how i feel right now. can anyone tell me what my problem is?

Mon, 04 Nov 2002 07:05:54 GMT

i think magical things will happen if i don't mess everything up, and i don't think i will.

one time

Wed, 30 Oct 2002 05:42:48 GMT

i honestly think a lot of people are stupid. i, yeah... um thats all.

Tue, 29 Oct 2002 05:27:00 GMT

i am terribly sick. i hope i don't have to go to school tomorrow, i could use the time to catch up. i am not really behind, but you know. i am going to go to sleep i geuss. i seem to be all out of words when it comes to writing, but who knows, maybe they will come back to me one day.

Tue, 22 Oct 2002 05:09:59 GMT

goodness me, i hope i get better at doing stuff one day.

i have a secret that makes me smile, but makes me sad...
confused? me too.

talking is a good thing, i should do it more often.

maybe next week i will learn from my mistakes.

-andrea

andrea is stupid

Sun, 20 Oct 2002 05:55:19 GMT

basically i am stupid, i really messed up this time. i would not care but unfortunately what happend affects someone that didn't deserve my stupidity. why can't i do anything right? oh well.
-andrea

my name is andrea

Wed, 16 Oct 2002 04:37:45 GMT

i am oh so happy.

if i think it, it is true. i promise.

Sat, 12 Oct 2002 06:28:00 GMT

i went and did stuff tonight, i bought some really great new clothes. i work ten hours tomorrow and than it is party time. more or less. i want something new and great to happen, i want to meet someone that will make me really happy, people make me happy, but there should be one specific person that makes life so worth it, right? right? oh well. i am going to go have fun or something (basically that means i am going to go to sleep or read).
bye
-andrea

ultra yeah

Wed, 09 Oct 2002 16:21:28 GMT

i am updating from school, doesn't that make me ultra cool or something, or something! well, i hate this place, i have a lot to do and igeuss i am going to homecoming after all but knowing me it probably won't happen, i met some new people adn i am hanging out with old ones so that is nice, but i geuss i should do something with my time thanjust sit here and waste it. will talk later promise.
-andrea

just for you, you know who you are

Wed, 02 Oct 2002 04:16:54 GMT

wow, i love my new job, it is so great. so yeah, i kind of want to go to homecoming but i have no one to go with, i don't really want to go for social reasons but i have a cool dress and it would be something to do. plus it might be fun you never know, i didn't go last year, and i am sure that it might be a good highschool experience. anyways, i am reading this really great book that my great friend jil gave me. yeah! so i think i am going to the gossip on friday but isis is on sunday! and i love it. i went climbing tonight it was pretty fun, i um have a swim meet on thursday. homework is really overwhelming, i wish i could just sit down and do it all with out, you know, having to do it. dana sucks, i wish she would call or talk to me in any way possible, she just kind of disapeared, damn her. and i am going to talk to my friends and i geuss do my homework and then maybe sleep. if anyone needs a turtle , it is a really great turtle, i love it but if anyone needs one they can have mine, for free, i love it but you know, i have a hard time taking care of it because of school, swimming, climbing and working.
-andrea

Wed, 25 Sep 2002 04:19:03 GMT

hello, schools great and i have a friend. swim coach is horrible. but yeah, i just wanted to update, it has been a while.
catch you on the flip side
-andrea

sure?

Mon, 26 Aug 2002 18:20:14 GMT

so i have basically given up on social interaction. if i see people that i know i don't even say hi anymore, even if they were my good friend before this summer. i am almost absolutely positive that no one is even reading my live journal, i think that is good... maybe, maybe not. this is precisely what i wanted, i just wasn't quite so prepared for the loneliness of it all. but it will all work out in the end and i will be happier than i ever anticipated.
can't wait for school to start up again, awesome!

don't mind the spelling i have always been bad at that too

still pensylvania

Mon, 05 Aug 2002 20:53:17 GMT

still here, i will be there on wed.

pennsylvania

Thu, 25 Jul 2002 01:32:25 GMT

hi everyone, i am in pennsylvania. i just wanted to let you guys now because i really didn't tell anyone that was going but anyways, i will update beter later, it was nice talking, check you later
-andrea

Fri, 19 Jul 2002 18:40:25 GMT

i am off to darington, music, and climbing. i don't know how well the climbing will go, i should look up some cool places to go over there. at least i will have a lot of water. i should probly go pack,i am leaving pretty soon. i geuss i will be back on sunday.
bu ti went to go climbing at the seattle vertical world to climb yesterdayand the routes are so much harder than anything, they are really fun but pretty hard, oh well. i am tired.
see you.
-andrea

its good to have options

Thu, 11 Jul 2002 06:22:04 GMT

things are not good. i wish i could live at the climbing gym.... or somewhere other then here. so, i think i just lost the ability to pretend i am happy or something, because i certainly am not. oh well, back to living for everyone but myself. summer is the worst season of them all. i wish my yoyo didn't break, now i have nothing to wake up for in the morning. i think all of my aspirations have been kicked out of me. i think my appendix is going to explode too... and there is a moth on the keyboard that i almost accidentally killed, could life get worse??? i don't think so. well at least i am going climbing tomorrow, and i think i have enough water to last for a couple of days so maybe life will go on. i haven't been to a show in so long, and to make things worse i am going to be out of town the day the blood brothers get back, so i am going to miss them AND the locust. and some other stuff too, but i think i am going to go to bed instead of think of all the bad things. goodnight all.
-andrea

until next time

Mon, 08 Jul 2002 20:45:40 GMT

so i just got back from squamish and i had an amazing time and the climbing was great, i didn't do very well for the first couple of days but the last day i had a cool time. so yeah u have been out of town a lot and i am sorry to all of my friends that i care about but you know what...i don't know and i should really call all of you.
sorry

Fri, 05 Jul 2002 06:43:43 GMT

so things are a little better, or maybe i am just getting used to pretending that nothing is wrong again, either way i feel a little more alive. fourth of july is so stupid, really i don't like it, it was fun at first because i got to make fun of patriotism with an amazing person while riding on a float through a parade but than we went to a stupid party with trailor trash people that like to talk about how much meat they eat. so i wasn't to happy about today towards the end of it. but i did get to drink a lot of water so all in all today was good. unfortunately climbing is consuming my life, i don't mind, evidentaly my friends do though. so basically i have been leaving to go climbing, and getting home and climbing and then leaving to go on other trips. i think i gained like 5 pounds too, like really, but oh well.
i will try to update before i leave for a climbing trip at 6 in the morning tomorrow
check you later

life huh?

Mon, 01 Jul 2002 21:53:58 GMT

wow, this isn't what is supposed to happen, finally after so long it is good, adn than it doesn't work. what was i to happy? oh well back to the shore of absolute depression, unfortunately i am to "okay" with this to talk about it and really be "okay" with it. why can't i just dissapear.

the source
it devours all of my feeling and chases away all that is alright

i just want to explode

i don't know and i am sorry are my new favorite phrases

mariners!!!!!

Fri, 28 Jun 2002 06:57:21 GMT

i went ot a mariners game with the mom, it was super fun, we laughed and had lots of laughs amd stuff, man, i am so psyched fro my climbing trip tomorrwo

choices, choices

Thu, 27 Jun 2002 18:33:34 GMT

so i went climbing with a lot of new people yesterday. it was super amazing. my old coach was there and we made plans to hang out again. and there was these three beautiful guys there that i always see but could never talk to, but one guy actually belayed and adn the other two were talking to mee like the whole time, and the guy i went up there with turned out to be rather amazing, in general. but yeah, i don't know, i had to miss the drive ins with my beloved mom adn god mom. my god mom's boyfriend has this 17 year old son that is super cute and fun but i was just informed he is a super whore that just dropped out of highschool, so he seems not worht knowing as of now. but i think i am going to shove off towards climbing practice, i will check you later

cloud 8, not quite cloud 9 because some things still suck

Wed, 26 Jun 2002 03:52:38 GMT

summer is so amazing, i love making plans with new and fun people... and meeting new and fun people, and progressing with old and wonderful people. an dmaybe i will get freckles this summer. yes! anyways i went climbing today and i saw a lot of my friends at the gym, tuesdays are always the funnest night of the week at the gym, and i finneshed some climbs i couldn't do before, not like i am progressing or anything it was probly just luck because i have been doing rather poorly lately, and i got invited to go outside climbing with some new and fun people and i made a bet with a friend and now he owes me beer, even though i am completely straight edge and afterwords i went ot taco del mar with my dad and sister, and i saw to of my ex boyfriends, together, and one of wich i geuss just moved back from oregon, adn they both are quite possibly to of my most important ex boyfriends in the world and neither of them came over and said hi, i don't blame them, we are oon pretty bad terms as of now, but i would still like to talk and maybe hang out, one of them sort of smiled but not enough to mean anything, only enough to clud my mind with amazing memories of when we were together, but you know, sometimes people are stupid but in his case he was stupid the whole time so yeah, its time to unpak my excess backage and move on to bigger adn better things. so i geuss i am not doing anthing tonight, the only people i really want to do anything with are not picking up their phones and the one person that i wanted to hang out with more than anything told me to call him buti am such a retard that i decided against it, maybe it was the right choice btu right now i don't think it was because i am still sitting at home pretending that i am on good terms with my ex's and that we might hang out later or one of them might come and knock on my door and rescue me from all of my dillusional memories that have been glorified and romantisized since we split, but enough about me, how about those um, you know, those... oh well
check you later

undiscovered

Mon, 24 Jun 2002 19:13:50 GMT

summer feels so good, i want to just leave and find new things, i can't wait until my sister is old enough to watch herself or old enough to enjoy/tolerate all the weird things i do. oh well sitting down thinking about what i ma going to do today is just as nice as actually doing it. i don't know, people that are normally just eh, are attractive and teh people that i thought were atractive are now like eh. thats what living does to you i geuss. jordan's and my wedding is creeping up very fast all i need to do now is meet him, but thats the easy part i geuss, after that its all down hill... i am going to go do morning stuff... check you later

yes

Mon, 24 Jun 2002 07:06:54 GMT

yes, so i visited fremont today, it was great, i think i might call some friends tomorrow. i am completely baffled on the spelling of completely... anyways. my feel like my life is like super mario and i am stuck on level 3 (as usual) and i can't get past it, and i keep on dying and going back to the fucking check point damn it, wich is sort of odd, because i am rather happy and content, but oh well